I’d done it, I finished the largest painting I’d ever done, and hung what took me weeks up in my bedroom. Goal accomplished, what’s next? I felt a bit frozen at first. I wasn’t ready to dive into another project that was so consuming, and didn’t have subject matter in mind that I thought would suit it. And practically speaking I didn’t have more canvases that size but I did have many smaller canvases waiting under my bed to used. So, what’s next? I pulled out a small canvas, found a photo we took last vacation and started. The painting is small around 12×12, it only took two one hour sittings to complete. It doesn’t take my breath away like my giant tryptic, but it is joyful and serene. It was an exercise that allowed me to just enjoy creating. (Inspiration was eastern Yellowstone national park.)
Ever had a dream that you saw realized? Having dreams is a good thing.There is a elation, a satisfaction, a gratefulness. But if we are honest that feeling of satisfaction, of fullness starts to fail sooner or later. We grow restless and wonder what’s the next big thing. And the pattern repeats. Or perhaps you meet with disappointment, the dream becomes an idol that holds your contentment captive. Is there a way out of the repeating pattern, to have a deep joy and contentment even when we are in “in between mode”, in “wait mode”, or “it isn’t gonna happen mode?”
I think there is. I can still struggle, but I need to be reminded that my significance doesn’t come from a title or accomplishment. My identity and value come from the fact that I am a treasured child who has been given everything, yes everything I need in God.
Here’s an article that I found helpful.